The sudden death of Michael Jackson has taken many people and the media by storm. I was walking around D.C. when the news hit, and people were yelling it to each other as they got the word, through cell phones and Blackberries, or even police radios. Some where stunned, others tearful; many, like myself, merely shrugged.
The newscasts tell me Michael Jackson was a pop sensation and icon. I cannot deny it. Who can forget the cute little kid singing “Easy as A-B-C,, 1-2-3, Doe-Rae-Me, You-and-Me,”? or the crazy excitement of the Thriller album? And yet, the Michael Jackson that I tend to remember most is the incredibly disturbed and confused man that seemed unable to face reality or himself. The Michael Jackson of debt, of two long-drawn court trials, of dismal tabloid headlines that I remember most.
In part this has to do with my own age and generation. Michael Jackson is the same age as my mother, someone cool but not as contemporary as the Backstreet Boys or whatever other boybands we adored in the 90s. He was old news by then, a part of the so-called Generation X that we never really fit into. And when he made the headlines, we knew who he was but many of us, I suspect, did not care (I could be entirely wrong, of course). Thus his death brings to us no emotional power, except perhaps for a fond memory of the high-pitched kid of the Jackson5.
For Generation X, Blacks, and many others, Jackson was a star that transcended reality. He certainly did much to ease the post-60s racial tension, by appealing to both blacks and whites. His music was fun, his concerts alive with energy, and his appeal somehow charming. But it seems that for Jackson himself as much as any body, the dream he promised and the ideas he preached lead to a dead-end.
I’m not quite sure how to take the emotional reaction I’ve been seeing. He was in my eyes a talented figure gone horribly astray, someone who discovered that all the glitter and golds of fortune and stardom offered nothing, but couldn’t find any place else to hide. If I mourn for him it is for his sorrow in the last few years, not because we have lost a great leader or icon. He influneced many, but how many will take his life as a greater lesson than his words?